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Thanks Larry, I would not have attempted this
without your encouragement.  Please pass this
along to the rest of the folks.

Hello All,

I apologize that this is going to appear to be
rambling, but I really have no words that
actually mean what I'm trying to say, so I feel
that I have to ramble to give you a flavor of
what I'm noticing.  I'm going to attempt to
discuss Vip's post about the Partnership field
being one of nothingness.  I'm really glad he
brought it up as I have been working at
describing what is occurring in my conversations
and life without having the words, yet
nothingness speaks to me of what is occurring. 
However, I must say it is not even close to what
I "thought" the mystical nothingness that I have
studied is all about - if it is that or
something else entirely!

First, the feedback I have been getting in my
conversations when I have attempted to discuss
this nothingness has been that what I'm saying
is depressing, I'm depressed, etc - it is in the
words I'm using I guess, because nothing could
be further from the truth, so I ask your
indulgence as I fumble with words that don't
have the same meaning that I've always given them.

So, as I am currently living and viewing life
there is nothing there.  It is as if nothing of
what I do, or say, or think or will ever do, or
say, or think has any meaning or reality (in a
non-physical way) - there is nothing and that
nothing has no meaning whatsoever.  There is
what is there and it is not good and it is not
bad.  It isn't even that I'm not thinking or
feeling emotions or doing what I have always
done - all of that is still there, but at the
same time there is nothing there.  As I read
back over this I feel like I'm talking in
circles and saying nothing.  Yet, the nothing
that is present is also full - but I can't say
what this full emptyness is full of!  

What happens in conversation, when I'm not
trying to express this nothingness, is there is
a connection with what we are each saying that
allows us to really get where the other is
coming from whether we agree or disagree it is
as if the communication is more clear in some way.

I have rambled on long enough about nothing and
not really saying anything.  Thanks to those of
you who have persevered through this.

Lynn





---LHanawalt@aol.com wrote:
>
> 
> ATTACHMENT part 2 message/rfc822 
>
> In a message dated 98-08-18 20:55:50 EDT, Vip
writes:
> 
> << Is there anyone else out there who has
consistently distinguished the
>  Partnership field as one of nothingness and
has something valuable to say? I
>  am constantly hearing cliches about love,
being amicable, being creative,
>  friendship etc. I am interested in people who
have experienced (not thought
> about) but experienced the nothingness of this
field. In particular what is
> the
>  beingness of this field i.e. if an adult was
being that field what would be
>  their manifestation. How would you recognise
one? >>
> 
> Lynn, would you please respond to this?
> Thanks.
> Larry
> 

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